It is hard to accept its an illness not a choice and to also not take it personally too. It’s awful all round, and not having control over it is what I struggled to deal with at the beginning. It plays on my mind most days it’s hard when you still love them even if you don’t like them, my ex has in nearly 4 weeks since a relapse lost two jobs and been using ignoring me at the moment because it’s too painful I think we are a trigger for them too sadly so im hoping he hits rock bottom he’s lost me the kids two jobs close to loosing he’s car it’s on finance and he hasn’t made 1 payment. Am I deluded waiting for rock bottom one can only hope I wouldn’t help him get better I’d be supportive and encouraging but that’s it because I don’t want to get hurt anymore he has he’s mum I’m just hoping he chooses to change he’s got nothing more to lose at the moment.
