Hi Caz,
Sorry to read your post. What you are going through is really tough and difficult to deal with on your own. If you would like some support please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support to people dealing with addiction in their family. We have trained and experienced people you could talk with, if you get in touch, which may help you to know how to deal with everything and move forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best.