You need to remember its not about you. It isnt personal and he didnt do it to hurt you. But I think hes given you a clear indication that this behaviour wont change. It is about him, and your decision is about whether or not you want to accept him as he is. There is no shame in walking away if that means you are going to have a healthy and happy future. Honestly I haven’t looked back, it has taken a long time to recover from the abuse but I am so so so happy I did it. When I was trapped in the cycle it felt like there was no way out but basically I was addicted to him. I was taking him not using as a personal victory and him using as a personal failure. But it isnt about us. You can choose to get off the ride. It takes a lot less strength to leave than to tolerate what you’ve tolerated so far trust me.
