Hello everyone.
I am sad again because i relapse again on friday 12.11.2021. I was again exactly one month sober till this date and i just feel bad. I was on a little party with co workers and i was telling myself all day before party that i cant drink nothing-not even one drink because i know myself (one drink is than two and then is cocaine…) but i dont know why i did it-it was just that bored feeling when i was near everyone who was drinking just i was sober… So i drink one beer then another and after third i ofcourse get that strong cocaine craving. One good things is i just took 0.5 gram what is not really what i do because i always thinking that it will run out tok fast. I must say i feel bad but if i look at other side i do better than last time so at one point i am a bit proud of myself because i can stop and didt snort 5gs again. I know it sound stupid but its a lot for me because i never ever snort that little always big amounts. So i dont really feel so depressed now 3 days later i fell okay. Hope god give me power to overcome this shit. I will pray for all of you thanks. Jaz