Bloody hell, I hope your. I exactly thought the same with people on heroin. But I don’t anymore.. These were just normal people who maybe had a bad upbringing or said yes when they should of said no.. And by just saying that one word.. Yes… I’ll try some.. Is years of pain. But I look at it differently now.
Anyways well done for getting off it and weening off it with methedone. You should be proud of yourself.
Now.. You need get away from this guy ASAP. He’s got you on this crap, and he’s going to ruin your life. Your already talking suicide. Message your dad today and tell him sort it ASAP. Ask if u can stay with him, even if its on the couch. You need be away from this guy straight away. He’s a parasite, sorry for saying this but he is.
It’s the new year, start a fresh, move away, and stay away from anyone who uses. I don’t know your full situation with your dad. But if he’s a good dad ect.. Take that offer now!
I couldn’t think of anything worse for my daughter.
Also try and get some councilling with what you went through, because the drugs do take the pain away, but it’s short term and just makes it work.
I believe in you! So you can do this!
Be strong and take the leap. Everything will work out fine I promise. Fix yourself and everything will work out well. Even with your children.