My heart goes out to you. I have had several similar experiences when I was scared to be at home. After several years of abuse and feeling scared, I had to find the strength to say goodbye although that remains a permanent wound in my heart. There are no easy answers. I sometimes think that if I had been less enabling previously that the situation wouldn’t have got to where I am today but who knows? My son is away from his children and that really hurts. I am home alone tonight after some tension between me and my partner due to matters indirectly related. So sadness all around. I apologise for always seeming so negative but this is the only place where I can be truly honest. I will pour myself a glass of something and go to bed. Sleep is my escape from the pain of it all. I send hope and peace to you all
