Hi Joanie59, I’m sure you have PTSD among other things. But I also think there’s a sense of depression that overcomes you when they’re finally doing well. It’s almost like you’re emotionally and physically exhausted after all you went through. And there’s no guarantee that it will last, so that’s a worry too.
My son is currently still doing well and I’m so grateful for that. I just can’t let my mind go to the thought of relapse- I get overcome with fear. I also have Covid right now and I’m so glad I didn’t get it while things were bad. There are many moms who have had to deal with Covid while they’re dealing with all their son’s issues.
I’m sorry that your health hasn’t been so great. It’s like once things calm down, you realize the serious toll it took on you. I hope you can separate yourself from your family’s problems enough to try and recover yourself. ❤️❤️❤️