JayJay, thanks for sharing your experience. I agree with coco, the drugs do them. The fact that you are very loyal and caring towards him perhaps may make you a little bit more vulnerable in my view. That’s how it made me. I’ve been loyal for years, I came out worse for it in the end.
Do you know how long your boyfriend has been using smack for? It’s a big drug to use all of a sudden, is there any chance he’s worked his way up to it and been using be since before you met him?
My bf always told me he believed that as an addict people only ever saw the side of him he wanted them to see. As the person closest to him I was the only person to see him for what he was. Didn’t stop me being with him for many years though, I cannot regret this, but knowing what I know now, if I could live it all again, and if I found an opportunity to walk away, I wouldn’t hesitate.
Sending love to all xx