I think it’s a grieving process and it’s our brains tricking us into forgetting a lot of the bad stuff. Have you heard anymore tonight?
Well he seems absolutely fine on the texts just giving me lists of things he needs so he’s definitely doing it and will then feel even worse. He says he’s coming round to see our son tomorrow so will see how that goes I don’t know if I’ll be able to hold it together…. Oh I know what you mean about the bins, I was crying over the washing up as he normally does it so that set me off again. I hope you manage to get some sleep tonight, I’m going to try now and no doubt lie here for hours on end!
I guess they can be great husbands and fathers but also addicts, and in active addiction that overshadows everything and takes away the lovely qualities we know they have underneath – they’re still there somewhere but it’s only them can make the choice to start getting better – I really hope for your husband maybe this is the start of a journey for him which will probably get worse before it gets better but may be the thing that makes him get clean eventually if he gets to whatever rock bottom looks like.
Tomorrow’s a new day and I hope we both wake up feeling stronger, sending lots of positive vibes your way xxx