Morning ,Dont worry bellapop there’s sometimes gremlins in the system when posting Isn’t there . If like to blame my spelling on it sometimes but I can’t unfortunately ha.
Fayzey – that’s stressful how awful . You must try and rest yourself, I find I live off the adrenaline stress for ages and then I get something really bad ten fold :/ .
I hope to god that what he’s saying is a moment in time scenario . Let’s us know how today goes when you can .
No mine didn’t come back last night . It’s usual that though , if he’s gone back to the coke he might clear off for a few days binging . But hoping not for his sake .
I keep him in my sights when he’s doing the test which is rubbish in itself I always think as if it’s come to this . Like I said last week he drank a 1.5 bottle of water before the test in order to cover up he had used unlucky for him it still picks it up faintly .
Maybe he’s not on it maybe I’m wrong but now the testing regularly and him “recovering “ seems to of changed his attitude just this arrogance of me like I have no right to any expectations from him ?! .I feel like he can’t balance work , home life and obvious the addiction over all that . He’s abandoned me so many times physically but mentally , emotionally . I can’t handle his selfishness and my resentment ignites my anger of what he’s done when something happens that I think hang on a minute the cracks are showing everywhere with us 🙁 .
Kids have already asked where he is . Going to be a long day .
Fayzey keep strong your doing good even though it won’t feel like that right now.
Xx