Hi LindyLoo and all the Ladies on here,
I’m so pleased that your Son is 1 year clean, that’s amazing, you must be very proud of him.
I haven’t wrote on here for ages, always want too, but struggle to put everything down sometimes. I read all of the comments.
My situation with my Son has not improved at all, in fact I would go as far as to say it’s much worse now than it’s ever been, which of course is very sad and very frustrating.
I have had to have the Police a couple of times to him, he’s just been out of control, but unless he’s committed a crime there hands are tied. I have asked him to leave, but he keeps coming back, and if I don’t let him in he damages things, and then I have to pay to put them right, which isn’t ideal at the moment as my ex husband now wants to sell the house, which quite honestly I’m finding very hard to deal with that and everything else.
I read lots on here and think it’s wonderful. I do struggle with the “keep loving him” part, sometimes I wish he would disappear and then I wouldn’t have to cope with it all, and then I feel bad for thinking bad things.
When he is clean and sober for a few days it’s wonderful, but when the Addict takes over I absolutely hate it, I suppose you learn so much having to live with an Addict, but I don’t cope very well with it all now. I say terrible things to him, and likewise he does to me, and then the next day your meant to act normal, I find this very difficult to deal with.
He has all the tools and people to talk too, meetings are quite near and available for him to go, but I just don’t see him making any effort, he says I don’t understand, which of course I don’t, but I also think it’s about making choices, and he makes bad choices.
I really can’t see anything changing at the moment, and that fills me with dread.
I know coming on here and writing it down will help.
Thinking of you all.
Dx