Hey my friend
I came clean about 6 months ago. I went all out and relinquished any method of accessing cash (leaving just Apple Pay). My phone left open for any impromptu checks and basically all of my movements were accessible.
I came clean to family and friends so really had no where to go or no where to access coke without leaving a trace (not that kind!!).
That one half of your brain telling you to be straight is the spirit, the other half is the beast. Unfortunately your spirit is currently intrinsically weak as the beast has ruled you for quite sometime.
Have a further read of my posts on here and happy to help 🙂