I have just come up to bed and wanted to find a site where you could chat. Sorry to read about your husband. It is so hard trying to live with addictions. My son is 24 and when he was just 18 we found he had a terrible cocaine problem. We managed to get him into a unit for a week and he got some help. Cocaine is rife so wherever he goes it is there on offer and you can get it delivered to you door! Before covid we made him move out, he hadn’t been using drugs but had a very anti social drinking habit. When he moved out, he developed his cocaine habit again and then just as lockdown started he moved home and was great for months. He is a big drinker and I am not sure which one is worse or whether they are both bad. My family has suffered much trauma, including suicide. Recently my son found out a friend had died from suicide and then a friend got killed in the summer and it has all affected his well being. He needs help and I think he wants help but not sure whether it is help for mental health, drugs or drink or all of them.
I read the comment about people at work doing nice stuff and I feel like that. I don’t like to go away any more because I just don’t know what he will be doing so I would rather not go, which is ridiculous really.
He was out all night last night and I went and picked him up at lunch time. He was going to go out with some friends but he had no money and he did stay in. From 11pm I was on egg shells thinking he is going to slope off and was so relieved when he just went to bed at 12.30am and asked me to make him a sandwich. I spend most my weekends being anxious.
It is awful to see other people suffering but there is something comforting to not be so alone