Once I accepted who I was there was never any resentment towards my wife. She put up with all my baggage but finally she had enough and rightly so, no one deserves to be treated in such a way, she just wanted the family life we’ve always had, was this too much to ask?
I’m forever grateful towards my wife every minute of every day for her allowing me to still be a part of my amazing family.
It was me with the problem, not her, what had she done wrong in any of this? It was I who created the toxic vibes that in turn effected her. All she wanted was love and I wasn’t providing it, even if she was my numbed emotions wouldn’t feel them.
I am blessed because she is an absolute diamond and it was all my fault. One has to accept their wrongs in their entirety and once they have they can start to our things right.
Now that I’m back the love I feel, the positive energy given out attracts such energy back.
Make no bones about it though, I did this for myself so I controlled my own happiness and the world could then see the best version of me. If I did it for anyone else what would happen if I fell out with that person.
Acceptance for one’s actions is key, without it we blame others which is unfair and won’t provide contentment or as I look to call it, forever happiness.