Hi Gardenfence
Thank you so very much for your reply. It is so very much appreciated. It makes me feel so much better knowing that someone is listening.
To be completely honest with you I haven’t. Clue what to do. Or what I am doing.
I have been doing absolutely everything for months now. And My girls are my absolute priority.
One is 17 and sees all and one is only 7. Innocent and confused about her Mum coming and going.
My wife is here but isn’t at the same time.
She sleeps most of the day which is fine as I know she is safe and hopefully healing.
So much has happened. To much to fully explain. Aside the Coke and money which I can forgive there is also the possibility of another guy. Which is the one thing that I really struggle with and most likely cannot get over. Only time will really tell on that one.
I feel absolutely exhausted fence. Mentally and physically. Constantly thinking about what may or may not have happened. We used to have a comfortable life with no worries. But now I barely manage to pay the bills.
I cannot work a full day as I have to do the morning and afternoon school runs. K no or to mention the school holidays.
My life has literally been turned our lives upside down.
Perhaps you are right that my wife should not be here right now. I know exactly what you are saying. Because even know she is here I feel more alone now than I did when she wasn’t here. Does that sound stupid?
She does nothing to help me. Nothing for the girls. When she’s awake She just sits there looking sorry for herself. Vague and emotionless. Which I get as she is on the biggest come down of her life.
I do get it. That filthy Shite takes over your life and you think your invincible, but when reality hits home. And your either out of money or nearly dead then reality hits hard.
It also destroys people, families, friends and everything that means something to you.
The lies. OMG the lies that she has told. One after the other. But as my grandad used to say. You have to have a good memory to be a good liar. And she doesn’t.
I’m taking one day at a time. As I know she is as well.
I don’t expect to have a relationship with her like we used to. But at least I will know that I have done everything I can to help her.
Thank you GF. Please keep in touch.