Wow MJDU what a move forward you’ve made. It’s great to hear you’re investing in you, and the positive outcomes they are going to give you. Walking is amazing it’s the thing that has been a constant in my life and it’s certainly a great way to think and sometimes use as a means to switch off too. Your dog must be loving you with this time of being out and about.
It’s good to see you’ve got a form of realism about your relationship with your wife, and you as a person in your own right and your family as you all need to get through this too.
Even though my relationship with someone as a friend and then as a partner was for about 4 years, I can now look back and see how cocaine was creating (unbeknowingly at the time) different paths for us. However, I learnt so much about it (cocaine), my handling of a relationship when it was in the mix and how my reactions maybe didn’t add favourably to the whole thing. Yet I can, as you can, will always know that you’ve come from a place of love and care because you’ve seen the impact it has on those that take it and those around it who are trying to understand it. It is though about us wanting to ensure the other person can come through it well and happy too.
The sailing sounds great. I don’t think you’ll have time to read the book as you’ll be too busy splicing the main brace. Good for you.