Hi Casey J.
I’m so glad you have done so well.
I was so tempted to take my usual 3 pills last night but didn’t. Today sweating a bit and feeling a bit jittery but I know as the days go on the stomach pains will probably kick in and I’ll feel hellish and have to make excuses for not wanting to do anything.
The other side of my mind( the one that tries to convince you you’ll be ok to keep taking them, especially as I only take 3 on an evening now is telling me to just take them for a little while longer). Goodness how our minds work.
I had a reply saying I had been taking quite a high dose which I honestly should have realised I shouldn’t compare myself to others who take say 20 a day. The fact is I shouldn’t ‘need them’ and that’s it I feel as though I need them and of course am dreading any side effects.
I confided in one friend but played it down a little. I said I felt I should not take any now that I have no pain. She suggested I may not get side effects/ withdrawals but I think she was being kind or perhaps just doesn’t realise what it’s like to have that feeling of ‘ I just can’t stop thinking about them.
Anyway that’s me today. See what tomorrow brings as they say.I’m sure my stomach churns because I’m worrying about how I’ll I may feel so I’m making myself anxious. How will I know if it’s anxiety or withdrawals? Both make you sweat. Heart race , etc.
What a mess. Hope tomorrow is ok and congratulations again on doing so well.
Thanks for your replies.x