Hey bro, hope you’re good.
Don’t worry man you’re not alone and I hope I don’t sound patronising when I say that luckily for.you you’re still at a stage alot of addicts would give their right arm to be…. At the stage where you can go months etc without out. Me myself am also a 30year old recovering cocaine addict but unfortunately my addiction gripped me alot harder to a point where I would use an unthinkable amount daily and I lost pretty much everything I cared about in life.
Less about me though.
Mate I feel for you because like you say got for a couple and after that 3/4th pint it’s game on and at that point you can’t stop yourself, there is alot of science behind that which I won’t bore you with but basically it comes down to a few things. Alcohol consumption lowers our ability to make good decisions and listen to our better Judgement and also it just comes down to the fact you know it’s an option. Like you go out have a few beers and yeah it’s great butmyih know what would make you feel alot better right…… It’s like going to a restaurant and knowing they do a really good stake but ordering a chicken breast. Why would you order the thing you know is less enjoyable right? So when you’re out having a few it’s like yeah I’m having fun but ordering a g will make this so much more enjoyable.
You don’t sound you’re at the stage where I would say to start associating the negatives of what comes with doing it at the time you want it as I don’t think you’ve gotten to the destructive stage luckily yet but you are at a stage where you are concerned enough to post here so unfortunately man I see the only way to go forward is to not drink. You can cover that up with a story of health or what ever else but drinking is always for you like it does me and so many others have a unbreakable connection to getting on the gear.
Maybe if you came back to drinking after a while like 6months or a year the enjoyment of a few pints may be enough on its own but if it’s now at the stage you can’t drink without getting one in, brother please take action now because it can so easily slip into an addiction like I battled. I was once at the stage you was and chose to ignore it and looking back I wish I had the strength at that time.you have shown now to speak up.
Hope that doesn’t seem too heavy though I’m not suggesting you’ll be like I was if you don’t listen to my advice aha just that youre in a good position now to nip it in the bud.
Good luck bro and keep in touch if you need support I’m on here alot. Feel free to read some of my posts if you need to scare yourself off getting on it aha
Stay strong
James x