Hi All!
Just popping in to say I’m on day 10 (woohoo!) I’m definitely over the worst of the physical withdrawals (still some chills and sneezing, but nothing distressing). Mentally, I am ok- not craving N+ or thinking of them at all but I am desperate for some sleep. It’s not coming easier despite OTC remedies and melatonin. I get 2-3 hours each night if I’m lucky. When does that get easier? When I do sleep I could wake at the drop of a pin.
A bit of background- I’ve been self medicating with N+ for a few years due to PTSD. I found the relaxing, sedating affects to soothe the symptoms of PTSD namely, nightmares and anxiety.
Now, I am left laying awake at night in the silence with just thoughts in my head. I’ve avoided dealing with it all and I couldn’t possibly know where to begin. I have children, a good career in medicine (how ironic!) but with long hours , but I am a single parent so life is super stressful and busy meaning between the N+ and life’s busyness I’ve been able to avoid feeling- literally anything.
I miss being numb. But, I feel if I got some decent sleep I would come on in leaps and bounds.
I really admire reading everyone’s journeys. Please don’t ever forget how strong you all are and how the advice and being so open about addiction is highly likely saving lives.
Much love to you all.
