U have been really helpful we have been together 21 yrs since we were late teens two kids aged 15 and 17 he has been my rock our whole time together. I did know he took drugs on and off weed every day but v v rarely coke. My life has went from being normal one day to feeling like I’m outside looking in at a stranger’s life. My anxiety and stress levels are threw the roof he doesn’t come straight home from work is a nightmare to get up for work, can’t get him to do a single thing in the house and dare u question if he loves u or still wants to be here and yes I do sound like a nag with him. I’m fully aware that he takes it so don’t understand why he says he’s one place but is actually in another ignores my calls Wen he’s there but answers when he’s were he said he is sometimes. I’ve told him I’m scared he will cheat he keeps saying that’s one thing I will never have to worry about well I didn’t think I’d have to worry about watching the man I love fade in front of my eyes my hearts broke I don’t Wana leave him I don’t even think he would care, I feel so boring as I don’t take coke myself even felt like doing a line even tho I’m petrified of the stuff just to make him want to spend time wit me but I quickly wised up
