Dear Myownlife,
I understand what you’re going through as my late husband was an alcoholic, it was devastating.
You are nearly there, nearly free. Just because he has driven himself into this, the alcoholism and now the cardiac problems, this is not your fault. You know this, your grown up children know this. You are not heartless, I can’t believe that you have suffered with him for 30 years, you say that the last 5 years have been worse and it will only get worse. As you say, you have tried everything and cannot fix him, you deserve to live a happy life of your own and that means leaving and living somewhere else. You sound like a strong and together person and that is why he has been draining your energy all these years.
Other people will understand if you explain all the facts and the full situation. Don’t be afraid to speak out, tell the truth about what has really been going on and don’t be ashamed, it’s his problem not yours. What ever happens to him, happens and that’s up to him to control.
Wishing you all the strength in the world and good luck!