Hi Navy
Good to hear from you, and hope you have found new resolve after a break and boundary reset.
Ive had a deadful week , and my bank holiday ruined which I was hoping for some time to rest and relax. He got caught out in the week and me putting in my boundaries and not standing for any more crap means he’s doubled down – constant put downs and said he is finished with me twice… But I’m so broken when he said it that all I’ve done is cry and cry and cry. And he does me down for that too..
Honestly the things he has said this week.. and I can see what he is doing but it still kills.md… I’m at a point where I feel so ill , lethargic and low that I feel powerless to do anything about it
I nearly went to my mum’s but I know if she saw me in the state I was reduced to, it would kill her. At very least there’d definitely be no going back and for some reason that scares me to… Where has the good guy , loving and supportive husband from the last month suddenly gone? .. it’s gut wrenching knowing the coke has a huge part to play…. But he also took it knowing the consequences.
I just feel so trapped , and racked with anxiety today. I’m going to try my absolute best now to look after myself and get out of this rut …firstly by doing some exercise and seeing family today…hopefully it makes me more resilient to his emotional attacks..
Take care of yourselves Navy, and all reading this …don’t let them drag you down to their desperate level … It’s really not worth it xx