Hi,
There is help out there! I work for a charity called Icarus Trust who supports people to deal with the impact of living with addicts. They offer a free service of a trained volunteer who would talk to you in complete confidence. These people have usually experienced living with addicts in their own lives so would understand what you are going through. They may be able to help you make sense of the mixed feelings you have.
Please contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
Good luck!
