Hi,
I can only say that I feel very sad reading your post and hope that you will be able to get some help so that can deal with things without feeling so alone.
If you would like someone to talk to The Icarus Trust is a charity that offers one to one support from our trained volunteers. These are called ‘Family Friends ‘ who would also be able to signpost you to other professional support.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I really hope that you can get some help really soon.
