Hi Donna,
It must be difficult to deal with your husband’s drinking and I’m sorry you feel so isolated. If you would like to talk to someone in complete confidence please get in touch with The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people who are dealing with family or friends with addictive behaviours. We offer a ‘Family Friends’ service which is free. These are all trained volunteers who are very experienced at talking to people in situations like yourself. It might help you to be put in touch with one of these as they would understand where you are coming from and through talking, help you to find a way forward.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that things get better for you and your family. Good luck!