This is so hard for you to have to deal with. If you would like to talk with someone please contact The Icarus Trust. We have experienced trained volunteers who you could talk with which might help you to keep positive and find the way ahead. It often helps to talk especially with people who understand.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that you find this useful. Good luck!
