This must be so hard for you to deal with. If it would help you to talk with people that understand what you are going through please get in touch with The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports the friends and families of addicts. We could put you in touch with one of our experienced volunteers which might help you to cope with things.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that this helps.
