Hi
Thank you for sharing your story. I really admire your strength and hope.
Maybe you would like to talk with people who would understand what you are going through. If so please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that is there to support people who are affected by a loved one’s addiction. We have trained experienced volunteers who you could talk with if you feel that would help. Maybe talking would help you to make sense of how you are feeling and find a way ahead.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that this helps. Good luck!