Hi there,
Its good to read that you are moving on with your life for your babies and your own sake but I’m sure that the decisions you have made have been very painful for you.
Good luck with everything and don’t forget The Icarus Trust is there if you need someone to talk to.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best and keep strong!