Hoi Justine,
I’m so sorry that you are in such a bad situation. If you feel you would like to have someone to talk with who would understand what you are dealing with please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for the friends and families dealing with the impact of a loved one’s addiction.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you. I hope you can get some support.