I absolutely agree the affect on the family is terrible, I keep a brave face for my children and make things up to cover up why he isn’t here when they wake up again. I don’t want to be negative because he is really trying at the moment but I don’t know how many more relapses I can take. Somethimes I want to play him at he’s own game show him how it feels to be left wondering where he is but it’s just not me. When he tells he’s “friend” and sisters that I’m stopping him doing these things and then tells me he doesn’t want to do it anymore I get so confused as to which is the truth. I have given him the option many of times to leave and live that life if that’s what he wants but it won’t be with me and he always comes back saying sorry promising things will be better and they are but only for a while. I know I have to eventually draw a line if it keeps happening but I have no idea how. I’m completely and utterly in love and adore the person he is when he’s straight but I loathe who he is when using. He’s had a lot of people give up on him or be bad influences and I don’t want to be another who gave up but at what personal expense xx
