Hello,
Thanks for posting and sharing your story. I can see how worried you are about your husband’s drinking and that you are worn down by it.
If you think it would help please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people who are dealing with the impact of a family member’s addiction.
Maybe talking to one of our experienced trained people would help you to find a way forward.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.