I am so confused by BlueBearI have been with my bf for 2 years. Occasionally he does cocaine and he turns into a person I don’t recognise and becomes a nasty person who says vile things; sometimes I don’t feel safe around him. When he is on c, he says I don’t love him and I don’t care about him. He talks about my past and refers to me as a slag or hoe. I cook, clean, and give him all the love and time I have and yet I don’t know why he does this. He expects me to let him stay over at mine when he is drugged but I don’t feel safe due to past experiences with him on drugs. I really don’t know what I am doing or what he is doing. I feel like I am faking a perfect relationship in the hopes it will all be better and become perfect.