Codeine almost destroyed me... by Dr DoakWow, this is hard. For over two years I have been addicted to Codeine. It started off as regular amounts but the wheels fell off pretty quick. At my worst I was taking 60 tablets a day (equivalent to about 1800mg). I’m not sure how I’m still alive. It was so bad that I even contracted Covid-19 and I didn’t cough once (it can be used as a cough suppressant). The shame was so deep that the only person I ever told was my father. I’ve kept it from my wife as we have three children and she needs her energy for them. It wouldn’t be fair to add to her worries. I don’t know how but I’m now codeine-free. I haven’t touched it for ten days and that was when I tapered myself down to just two a day. To go from 60 tablets to 0 took about a month and a half. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I still feel deep shame that it controlled me so deeply. But the world was so dark. It was only the artificial happiness that the drug created that seemed to be getting me through the day. I still get the occasional need to rush to the toilet but the physical symptoms of withdrawal appear to be gone. The psychological pain is the hardest. It’s broken things in me that I don’t think go back together. But I know this will get better as time goes on. I’m not sure why I decided to share this but felt compelled to say something to someone as I don’t have anyone else to talk to. Thank you.