Don’t know what to do for the best by OnmyownHi everyone I’m new to the site and desperate to find other people going through the same/similar thing to me right now. When I met my husband 5 years ago he was honest with me fairly early on that he was on a methadone script, naively I thought that meant he wouldn’t use again. I had not been around drugs before and had no clue what I would be dealing with. After the first year of our relationship I found out that he had used twice in that time, again I stupidly thought that was manageable. He was then clean, barring his script for two years, we got engaged and started to plan our wedding. Then about 6 months before the wedding he told me he wanted to use (he had always let me deal with our finances so it was one less temptation for him). My husband gets very bad social anxiety so the stress of the wedding was his excuse to use. So I gave in and gave him money but only after he got on my case for over an hour cos I couldn’t take the attitude he was giving me. He promised that this would just be the once (like we all haven’t heard something along those lines right?), fast forward and he is using on a regular basis and is really hard to be around. He tells me that it’s my fault he is using again and everyday he tries to tell me “today is the last day” but I’ve heard it too much now to believe him. I kept his drug history from my friends and family because I was respectful of his privacy so now I feel totally isolated and don’t know what to do. I work a full time stressful job and he is “looking” for work meaning I am the only breadwinner and he is using so much we are broke. I don’t know what to do for the best.