I'm new here and talking about these things isn't something I thought I'd be doing it terrifies me to realise I might have to leave someone I adore.
My partner has a sever addiction to cocaine and it's become unbearable hes nasty and says some of the most hurtful things.
He disappears for days at a time on different binges . He does 4/5 days with no sleep and no food at a time he then comes back sleeps and eats for 4 to 5 days and then goes again.
He tells me to go and that he doesn't want to be with me that he doesn't want a relationship anymore but then the following day hes telling me he loves me and not to leave.
Hes had a hard life and everyone has always just left him to it his family say everyone does it and alot of them do drugs to and that I have to accept it and leave him to do what makes him happy ( can you believe people that are ment to love him just tell him it's ok)
My family tell me to run I've tried and tried I've got him off it for months at a time but he just goes back on it .
He tells me he wants a life of women coke and partying then when hes had a few days off it he wants to come home and me a husband and a dad . I don't no what to do I'm so scared I'm going to get a phone call says hes dead or seriously hurt , I'm also scared that I'm putting my own life on hold to try and help him but he doesn't want to be with me anyway .
it's so hard to figure out what he actually wants or not.
When ever he asked for help from his family and friends they end up doing it with him rather than doing what he asks .
Do I take my children and run , just leave him to it or do I keep waiting around from man that I might never get back .
sorry if this is long winded and confusing . and advise would be appreciated . take care X