Quick background, I’m in my early 30s and have been alcoholic since my first drink at 14, I loved it! Alcohol allowed me to be loud and confident etc and from the get go I was a greedy drinker and couldn’t get enough...
Between ages 14-25 my drinking progressed big time, I didn’t drink all the time Infact often months apart but when I did drink I caused absolute chaos and trouble always followed. I would drink until I blacked out or fell down.. I never knew when to stop..
I had a couple sober years between 25-27 and then discovered Codeine and I was in love again.. painkillers became part of my daily life on and off for 7 years, I would still drink but maybe once every 4/5 months and I only managed to abstain between drinks due to having my sidekick codiene. I thought my life was unmanageable when my only problem was booze..
My codeine addiction grew and grew just like my drinking until I was taking up to 120 pills a day.. I shouldn’t be alive!
During the last 7 years I’ve stopped so many times and had lots of days, weeks even months of being clean and sober but I could never stay stopped! By the end I was taking stronger stuff than co-Codamol and nurofen plus, I really thought I would end up on methadone.
Today I am almost 6 months sober and 8 days clean of codeine and I am miserable, I know this is normal and I’ve abused my body and brain for so long it will take a while to repair but hoping by sharing on here there are others at the same stage or further forward than me who could support each other..
I have a huge desire to be clean and sober today, I want to live! By some stroke of luck I had my bloods taken after confessing to my GP about my addiction and my liver etc all came back functioning as normal.
It’s taken me almost 6 weeks to taper down from 100+ pills a day to none but I’ve done it and today I can say I AM CLEAN AND SOBER!
Physical withdrawals have passed but mentally it’s so hard...
Thank you if you have read this far!
Love and positive thoughts to all