I have been with my partner for around 9/10 months now. He’s a wonderful man, works hard, faithful & our relationship has been full of love, happiness & laughter. Until now...
Since lockdown he has been drinking more which has led to him relapsing on cocaine, he was clean for a while before we met. It started from him doing a line with drinking & through the weeks has worsened to him doing it at work, drinking after work. He’s become distance, absent, lack of sex drive.
We have no stress, financially we are good, we have no children so no additional pressures. I do not know what has triggered this behaviour.
He has left me in the last 2 days, he had an episode of doing cocaine and downing a bottle of vodka within an hour, I am a nurse and the best thing for me to do was to call an ambulance; I would never of forgiven myself if he did not wake up.
Upon calling the ambulance for the first time he become aggressive & verbally abusive and just not him. I’ve packed his things now, he’s gone back to his parents & hasn’t tried to contact me, or even try and show any remorse he’s just said ‘I’m lost atm, I’ll collect my stuff Sunday’.
I am heartbroken, I’ve blocked his number etc as I can’t talk to him right now, I don’t know if I can ever get past this, it’s not what I signed up for. No one has a clue about his habit apart from me and his family, I don’t want to talk about it to people as I don’t want them to have a negative opinion on my relationship. I’m so broken right now x