Hi all, need to get this off my chest, this is my first time of actually reaching out to people who are in the same situation.
My Son who is 29, has been in Rehab twice this year, for Alcohol and Cocaine addiction. He went 100+ days clean the first time, but unfortunately relapsed. He went back to rehab (not the cheapest option, but a wonderful place), he done his 28 days and then went to a “dry house” for 4 weeks, has been at home for about 2/3 weeks now.
It has been a lot better, he has been calmer and more helpful and so much better with his daughter (she lives with her Mum, but we have lots of contact).
He has been doing meetings everyday, sometimes twice a day, he has a sponsor, to enable him to go through the 12 steps of recovery.
I went out with friends last night, I felt really nervous about going, but he reassured me that he would be fine. He sent me a txt and said that he had had a drink, no drugs, so I came home, we chatted, no good getting angry, I find that this does not work.
He has not come out of his bedroom today, probably feels ashamed and guilty, and me, I just feel very confused.
I know that this is an illness, but he has been so positive, it’s like a slap in the face again. I know that I could never go back to living the way we lived before, think that would just about break me now.
I have read a few of the stories and can relate so much to them.
Thank you for reading.