Hi all very pleased to have found this site and see that I’m not as lonely as I feel!
Not normally one of splurging my feelings but I feel this is a safe space. I’d never thought my other half would dabble with drugs! However after cleaning the my living room in the summer I found some ‘paraphernalia’ under my sofa... turns out my other had ‘misplaced’ this after a boozy night with his friends. Turns out he has been doing cocaine.... he at first denied it and then eventually confessed telling “he’d done it on a few nights out with friends”. We have two young children so gave him an ultimatum and he said he’d never do it again. He works full time and I know the friend he works with uses cocaine. I naively thought the drama was over until I found some suspicious messages on his phone a few nights back (wrong to go through his phone yes I know) again i confronted him and he tells me he hasn’t used any. We have two young children and I’m petrified of losing their dad to addiction and all the debt etc that usually coincides as we currently have a comfortable life , he promises me it’s not like that ... a story many of you have probably heard before. I’m trying to cling onto hope but I’m so worried. He’s knows it’s wrong but the response I’ve had is ‘I’m an adult and you need to believe what I say’
Thanks for reading xxx