I just want to reach out to anyone in a simialr position as me or also any recovering addicts that are trying to get clean.
I knew my partner did coke occasionally but I only saw the extent of it when I moved in. I’m still wasn’t too bad he would do it every now and then on a weekend or so but he lost his dad in June to cancer and since then he has completely spiralled.
I also found out I was pregnant around then and I’m now 6 months pregnant. He basically kicked me out saying he wanted space and needed time to grieve about 3 months ago, so I’ve been living with my parents.
Since then he has wanted to remain in a relationship and claims he is getting his shit together because he wants to be a family.
I haven’t seen any changes or any effort to rebuild our relationship or begin a life together and now it’s 3 months left till baby comes.
When I was there he would disappear saying he’s going to get smokes but wouldn’t return till early hours in the morning drunk and high. Admitting to it saying he knows he needs help.now I’m not there anymore so I don’t see what he’s doing for sure but I can tell by how he communicates with me on each day.
Horrible things he says, then changing his mood to loving, it’s exhausting.
I just want to ask addicts.... where do they go when they disappear like that? Is he cheating? He says he just drives around alone doing lines, sounds insane.
Also, do they care at all? How could he do this to his pregnant girlfriend? I know it’s the drugs and not to take it to heart but if he does recover will he even feel remorse for his actions? It’s just so heartbreaking