Hello everyone, And thanks for taking the time to read my post.
I would appreciate any feedback back.
So me and my partner have been together for 16 years I'm 32 his 33.
His addiction is meth from the age of 19.
He doesn't use everyday all day its an occasional thing but he lies every time when doing it.
His addiction has lead to me moving homes several times my household items sold or destroyed.
Or Having to hide away from his out- breaks when coming down from meth.
He has been to jail for 2 years from a restraining order he breached and domestic violence against me.
After 8 years if this we took a 2 year break.
In this time he seemed to get his life together so I took him back.
It has been 4 years and not a single drama he had full time work and our life was peaceful we got engaged saved money for a house deposit and I also found out I was having our 3 baby......... until
6 months ago I saw slight changes in him and poor choice in the people he was socialising with.
I spoke about this with him and suggested its probably not the best idea .
(I mean you wouldn't take an alcoholic to a pub and ask them to sit there ) would you ?
So socialising with other drug users can't be the best choice.
So last week he was going for a drug test for work I called him to see how it went.
After a long story he basically told me he missed the appointment and won't get the job.
I called the place and apparently he never even showed up.
I then rang him to see where he was and he was at this same friend's house again.
After our phone call I continued to clean the house and then my phone beeps....
my bank has advised me $11 was spent at our local chemist.
So I called him back to see what the purchase was as I was concerned he might not be feeling well.
He said just pain killers because he had a headache.
Something was telling me to got to the chemists and check.
So I did ...
I went to our local chemist and ask for a receipt from the transaction record.
She said ( fit pack ) not pain killers.
So basically syringes to inject the substance.
I was so hart broken and basically had a melt down in our chemist.
He didn't even seem to care how upset I was over the phone.
He Returned to our home the next day
And starts abusing me.
I asked him to rather leave.
The police arrived at my house to give him a moved on notice for 24 hours.
The situation escalated soooo much because he was high.
The police officer arrested him and now he is back in prison.
I don't know how to feel or what to do anymore.
I'm feeling so drained
I'm concerned for my safety when he is released.
I have gone and applied for a VRO but it hasn't stopped him before.
Has anyone got any advice will this always be the case ?
Even if you give substance up is the urge always there ?
I have no family or friends and can't seek advice or talk to anyone close.
I'm trying to stay strong for my 3 children but it's so hard I'm just not coping.