Your fine and you can say and rant on as much as you like, I'm happy to listen, I have been there many times.
The life is very tiring, you feel constantly on edge because even if they have supposedly kicked the addiction and are getting help the fear never dissapears.
I never told anyone in my family for years, and it was eating me up daily,.lying for him, making excuses for hes behaviour. Eventually I told family 2 years ago and I ended it with my partner, he moved out for 6 months got some help and people believed he was actually going to change.
Things where great for a short period, then slowly he started to mix with wrong people and the whole lot started again, this time worse than ever.
It became a daily thing with him, and the whole not coming home, I would be cooking meals and throwing them away, all whilst looking after our son.
And then when he went missing for over a week I thought he must be dead. How wrong I was, he was choosing to mix with homeless addicts, and they was using him to run there drugs and god knows what else about.
I had never felt so worried sick to my stomach when he never came home, I didn't eat I didn't sleep through worry. I decided I had to have the locks changed and move hes stuff to hes mums.
He then came back and looked an absolute mess and honestly thought I was going to allow him in my house, when he had been mixing with God knows what.
He knows now that if he wants any part in my sons life then he has to sort hes life out. He has had more than enough chances and the ice is so thin with him now he Doesn't dare mess up.
I think with addicts you have to make a stand and make your point 100 percent clear to them.
At the end of the day they are choosing that life, they may have an addiction but there is help out there and if they choose not to accept the help then they are choosing drugs over there family.
How's things at the moment? Xx