I feel terrified for the future. My husband admitted ( was found out) 6 months ago (less 3 days!) that he had been dealing with a cocaine addiction for 5 or so years. He sought help quickly and had been doing amazingly well and literally with no warning last night he bought coke again!
I have complete control of the finances after him running up £40k debt and he had to tell me that money had gone from.our account but said it was an old debt of £80! So desperate to pay at 4.30am! He then admitted at lunchtime that he had got some coke (which I knew) but he lied to my face for a good few hours and felt like we were back to the beginning! To be fair to him he has contacted his therapist so wants help but I'm completely broken! Is this my life now just waiting for the next relapse?