: Drugs, alcohol and mental health

Discuss the twin challenges of mental health and substance use

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Cocaine addiction

Hey people :) I haven't done this before... but I feel like I need to just say it...

I use cocaine for many reasons, the biggest is it helps my pain (I have sickle cell)

It also calms down my mental health, I'm able to write music & think quite logically when on it... so it traps me every time.

I live in South London and I HATE IT. I'm a young black woman who's a tomboy, I get abused a lot out on road.... someone always wants to fight me or Rob me. So f**k it.... Just get me some packet & let me be!

I'm very aware of it. Lol. VERY AWARE. But as aware as I am I'm still trapped.... I come off it, I'm depressed, I'm angry, I'm anti, I'm in pain, just problem after problem. I think I've reached 24 and I cant see my future anymore, I know no matter how hard I fight this illness It will progress.... it will continue to mess up mobility and mental so I think unconsciously I've given up. I just dont care anymore.. the system gave up on me, the NHS also gave up on me, my career is over(elderly carer)....

But maybe I do care cause I wouldn't be here.... I could easily ignore it, but I'm no junkie... I'm just very lost right now... :( I wanna be better I do...

replying to Turtletime

Hello.

Loved reading the post.

First up, what sort of pain we talking here physical or mental?

replying to Turtletime

Hey :)

Both! I have sickle cell that causes severe physical pain

And due to all the opiods n strong medicine I've been on from young it has indeed fcked me mentally as well.

Apart from my illness I do suffer from depression, ADHD, other BS that I hate tue label of....

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replying to Turtletime

Ok so multiple things going on here, and I'm sorry to hear about sickle cell too.

Have you reached out to the GP recently to review the meds?

replying to BT1978

I have yes, I've been long time let down by my GP and MayDay my hospital... Coke is honestly the ONLY thing that genuinely works for my pain....

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