I am absolutely broken today.
Over the weekend whilst I was away for the night my husband had a massive relapse and it ended up with him going to his parents house.
He has said for a few days but I am so scared he won’t come home.
I know it’s the right thing to do for him and he has told his parents everything which he has kept hidden (we have kept hidden from them) for years.
I told him I wouldn’t contact him unless he contacted me first.
I’ve not heard from him since he left and it’s absolutely killing me.
Over time he’s always thrown it in my face that I don’t understand him - that it’s just who he is - that we are different people …. All in relation to his addictions and he’s said it is a defence mechanism but I can’t help but sit here thinking it’s my fault.
He has said he loves me and will come back and for the first time he has admitted he’s an alcoholic. Or has he described a functioning alcoholic
I have spent all morning crying in bed
I don’t know what to do