Hi all , I recently lost my bf of 5yrs + last Friday 24thand I feel very sad about it . I just saw him on Friday the 17th and I was very upset with him as he was asking me money for alcohol. It’s been a rollercoaster just after dating for 2 years he became very depressed and negative . His family wasn’t that supportive and I was the one who was taking care of him. But I am just trying to be strong for him and I just feel I did more for him even though he declined help. I feel guilty but it’s because of other circumstances I couldn’t see him for a week . I really feel bad 😞 and I hope he forgave me .
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Hi Cathey, I so sorry for your loss.
Please don't feel guilty, I'm sure you did everything you could to help your boyfriend.
Addiction is so cruel- turns a kind and loving person into someone we don't recognise any more.
I'm sure he knew that you cared for him , the addiction just takes over their every thought, word and action.
Perhaps you may benefit from contacting a bereavement counselling service.
Please look after yourself
Sending hugs ❤️
Lx
Thank you Lindyloo for your kind positive words. It’s hard but all will be well am sure he is resting in peace , He was saying to me one day he will commit kill himself but I didn’t know it will come , God know it all . I pray for everyone who is going through this. Love 💕 you all xxx be strong.
God bless him, some people who are struggling with addiction probably think that this is the only way out.
At least he will be in a better place now, and out of the torment of addiction.
Please look after yourself at this sad and difficult time Cathey.
Lx ❤️