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Posts by CrystalVision


8 posts in 4 threads

Can't cope anymore...... by

He might let you go if you decide to leave him and give him the ultimatum. It depends how far down the road he is. Still I think it's a chance you should take even if it hurts. As he is becoming abusive to you and you cant let that go on. It will hurt if it doesn't go how you want but it'll get better in time and ultimately it's really something you have no control over. I'm still in limbo with mine in a way but theres been no contact in almost a month now, its pretty obvious what his choice was. Life goes on I suppose. Sorry you're going through this.

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Feeling a bit lost after breakup with cocaine addicted boyfriend... by

His friend uses as well, it always gets so much worse when his friends are around. He has known a few of them since his teens, so he didn't like me trying to discourage him from seeing them. I didn't like to be controlling either, but I didn't know what else to do. It didn't work anyway. He has terrible paranoia and delusions sometimes due to the cocaine, or even an underlying mental condition..I don't know. I have called the police a few times when he frightened me. So I know if he doesn't stop I can't be around him and risk my safety anyway. I had told him that before but it was soon forgotten by him. It's awful when you keep going over things in your head, isn't it? Like replaying scenarios and wondering if you could have done something to stop it working out that way... But I guess it's important for us to remember that we can't control another person and do the work for them if they don't want to. Unfortunately, for the time being, I think mine is a long way from reaching a point where he will stop. But I have hope I suppose. At least yours is getting help now. You are doing the best thing by backing off, same as I am. It's hard because we miss them, but ultimately there's not a lot we can do about the situation. It is definitely helpful to read around the forums. A lot of other people are having the same experience, drugs don't discriminate I guess. We can only stay positive for ourselves and hope that things will work out, one way or another.x

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How to break up with a violent cocaine addict, we have a Newborn together by

You should make a plan unknown to him and just go. Find somewhere safe to stay for you and your child and notify the police so they're aware. Ring the Domestic Violence helpline maybe. You can tell him why etc once you've gone via text or email. If he's in another country right now that should make things easier. Cocaine is a horrible drug and causes extreme paranoia which can sometimes result in violence. Be strong and safe, get away from him.

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I need help to let go by

I'm kind of in the same boat as you, although I'm not anymore as I made the decision to walk away. Sorry you're going through this. My boyfriend/ex's drug of choice was cocaine but I guess all addicts behave in a similar way. The constant lies and let downs were getting me down, I think there was some abusiveness as well. I found myself changing as a person because I was always feeling defensive, always upset by him choosing drugs over me, so that affected the way I related to him. It was becoming too toxic. It was very hard but I just realised I could not continue in the relationship if he did not get help. I think you should tell him how you feel but he probably won't listen if he's anything like mine. The drugs change their brains and I think they lose the ability to empathise. It sounds like the time has come for you to walk away too. It might even shock him into changing his life, although that's not very likely. Walking away is probably the best thing you can do for yourself and him. As enabling is not helpful to him either. You only get one life, think of yourself and don't waste more time on someone who is making you unhappy and unwilling to change. Not sure what else to say, I am still feeling lost and confused myself. Good luck with things.

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