Boyfriend's cocaine addiction. by PopsxxAbsolutely heart breaking reading all these stories and frightening so many of you/us are going through similar experiences. Massive cuddle to you all! Was in a 2yr relationship. I lost a baby too, I’ve put that down to stress and worry, was very early weeks, constant worrying about mood swings and abuse. I was sent home whilst loosing had to go back for bloods to hosi and he ended up in the pub all day/night (obvs bender) so had to go back to hosi on my own for blood to check HGC levels until I could have a scan later that week. He only got intouch just before the scan. I felt so alone and let down as he wasn’t there to support. Made excuse he couldn’t deal with it. But obvs it was more an excuse to go score. Lots of other Stuff verbal Abuse, constant accusations, routing through things to try and find evidence of cheating, constantly questioning as if to trip me up . Nasty verbal names both vocal and texts. Then can be the kindest person when not on it! I think it was a 3 wk cycle but progressively my gut is telling me it’s every weekend pretty much over the past 3months. There’s no excuse I see it to ramp usage up. He used to go on bender when he got stressed. But he has nothing to stress over. Life is what I perceive good for him?! But I know he struggles and he’s used for 20 years or more! But I think he hid it well and only when the arguments were a pattern every 3 weeks and then ramped you to weekly! He also heavily drinks 3/4 to a bottle of vodka a night.... I think this is substituting one for another hasn’t always drank like that but has the past 6 months. His behaviour and mood swings are erractic. When he’s simmering off it he can snap at the slightest thing! He says he has bad anxiety and worse the morning after drinking so why drink?? Empty promises, curb drinking for two days and then back to the same old. Paints me a dream happy ever after and then spoils with constant arguing, leaving ignoring abusing for days on end and then he’s sorry! It’s over... well he’s finsihed it cause I called out he needs help. Said I’d be here all the way through and love the bones of him. He said he’s done. Which shocked me and I’m heart broken.