Shocked and feeling sad by KklostWeek 10 - Wow what a change. It’s been hard But what a huge change. He is back and fully here. I now realise how bad it was and how it was so gradual... I hadn’t seen it. Hadn’t realised how bad it was. He’s 100% clean, still taking tests every two day. He attends NA meetings. Speaking to the GP every two weeks. Having weekly drug counsellor sessions. I’ve done counselling and sobbed through the whole session. But it’s done. We start couples counselling next week. I didn’t think we would be ok. I didn’t think he could do it. His sex drive has returned and it is so much better between us. I feel like we really have a connection again. I knew I missed it but didn’t appreciate how upset I was about that! I think now it was all a huge cry for help (as well as pure selfishness) and now he has better support and I understand what’s going on I can help. I think everyone was right when they said the person has to want to change. Without that you can’t make it happen. It’s their journey and we are just dragged along!