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Posts by Littlehappy


38 posts in 4 threads

I’m done….I hope! by

Hey I’ve not heard a peep! I’m so glad but the longer it goes on the more I’m worried each day that he will suddenly appear… I don’t care but I worry about our little one, he’s dad and everything and I’m sure he misses her but she won’t be comfortable seeing him without me there which means I’d have to spend time with him too. I know the time will come but the longer the better for my mental health lol Hopefully he stays away just a little longer…and I know it’s probably gonna hurt but I sorta hope he’s charged off and jumped into another relationship to try and hurt me because then I can draw a line under everything I found a job! Back in teaching which is amazing but it’s happening so quickly lol, I’m keeping busy and things are just zooming! I planned on waiting till after Easter but hopefully I’ve got it all sorted to get back to work in the next couple of weeks! Gives me something to focus on! How are you?? Any news from yours? I hope your good xxx

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5 years in by

Hey I hope your good So much suddenly went on with me I just had to disappear and get on with it So…He went full circle, I’m still a little cautious that I’m not being strung along lol, He was so caught up in using and didn’t care about me, I had got my head around walking away and even moved most of his stuff out of my house. One night after a ton of abuse I messaged him and said I was done and that was that. Next afternoon I got a message to say he wanted to get sorted and come home, it was so strange! Anyway I kept him at arms length and he spent a week or so alone as his mate ditched him, he then took me out for lunch with our little one and it’s gone from there…I think his mate has held all the cards though, I think that if he clicks his fingers my other half will go running back - I hope not but I expect it. So now, he is not allowed to drink excessively or do any drugs here, all that stuff had to be done at his mums or else where, ive had a couple of nights where he has sat watching tv and then told me he has done a bean and I’ve had to watch him change which isn’t fun. But so far so good I guess, I’ve steered clear of here because he is extremely jealous and before would take my phone and search all of it for anything at all - I’m not a cheat so I never batted an eyelid if he did because there is nothing to find but this site would make him flip his lid, the knowing that I’ve outed him and all he’s done. He’s still managed to use quite a bit, It turns out that a night away to “let his hair down” turns out to be a ticket or two plus up to 5 beans which adds up if it’s even once a week! So He’s trying to come back, he’s on his best behavior, it’s strange because he’s so lovely and I wonder why he couldn’t just be nicer before but yeah Im waiting for him to slip up and Im not going to be all love struck just yet as he’s done so many things but I’m here and Im giving him a chance. So how are things with you? Did your man keep it up? I really hope so xx

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My ex has been a cocaine addict and now I think he’s cheated by

Hey Mj Just reading through what your going through, From my experiences, my ‘partner’ he used to use with me, just weekend stuff but all sorts, I think we were quite careful, sex life was good and yeah he was defo more pervy on it…. Fast forward to last year and he spiraled out of control, a man that he considered his father figure passed away and his drug use went crazy, drinking and using every other day, he walked out on me because I wanted it to stop, sided with his friend who wanted to use just like him and that was that, I took him back countless times, fell pregnant and I continued to stay clean, work hard and make a complete u turn. He was vile last year, screaming my street down, going crazy when we were out and about - all looney stuff! This year and we have spoken more, he’s been trying to win me back as his friend has ditched him, but the whole pervy thing!! Well the other night after seeing him for a couple of hours I came home, All fine as far as I knew, But come morning and I wake up to my phone and a million messages, he’s still awake, been up all night and I’m guessing about 3 tickets down, He’s sending me pervy messages about what he wants to do to me, where and is sending me filthy photos of all sorts!! Not what I expected to wake up to, I felt slightly uncomfortable and with my daughters in the house I just deleted it all very quick and ignored him Anyway later in the evening I get messages saying he felt like an idiot, obviously a full day of sleeping and he’s woken up to what he’s done!! I have no idea if he’s cheated on me, it makes me feel sick!, I will say that excessive use makes his little friend try n disappear so I’ve never been too worried but you never no! I don’t like it though, I don’t feel comfortable knowing he’s more than likely watching porn and messaging people It’s a horrible drug! X

by MJ2021

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I’m pregnant and feel so alone by

I’ writing this after another night alone in bed whilst he’s sat downstairs sniffing, waking me at 6 this morning asking me to drive him or he will risk driving himself so I stupidly did. I’m 3 months pregnant, our dream! After 3 miscarriages I finally fell pregnant but it all seems too late. He is the love of my life!, we are the slightly different dream couple that people envy, I’m 44 he’s 28. I have 4 amazing loving girls, he only has his mum, We just fit, or we did, inseparable ever since, that is until this year. He introduced me to different drugs, mdma, coke, ecstasy. Always on a really careful level, together and safe as possible. And then last year the man who brought him up died unexpectedly. Life changed, he’s buying 2 or 3 tickets every other night, he’s using beans and Valium to get rest. He has no patience, I can’t speak without him shutting me down, yet he writes me messages about how I can change. He has no money, he gambles or borrows or will even drive for his dealers. This is my man! The amazing man I fell for, and he’s gone. He cry’s happy tears over our baby, promises to change. I can’t speak to anyone about this, I just want him to stop or see what’s going on. I stopped way before I fell pregnant, I stopped drinking and vaping, I have a huge reason. He’s drinking so much as well, my house has a smell of smoke and alcohol, it’s disgusting. I can’t help regretting our baby yet it’s all I’ve prayed for for years, I don’t want this to be our life.

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